a gift to myself.

25 JAN,

a date i shall not forgotten.

the date yu promised nd broke it again.

i hate whenever seeing girls doing it,foolish!

but today,i acted like one. yes. an open wound is awful!

bleed profusely. thanks kak ann for helping wipe it off.

i hate blood!

im not rational at that moment of time.

pardon me.

this is the best way.

rather than sitting on the railing all over again??

*death ahead.

it's worth your heart breaking,boy. (:

im hurt physically & mentally.

keeping myself away from laptop.

i need a break.

it will just prolong this hurtful feelings each time im near to this laptop.

too much in it. memorable pic nd stuff.

as much as im still not in stabled condition,decided to have a long post.

so tonight's,this blog gonna be one long essay. hah!

2009-2010; Internity Love.

had a blast relationship with hym since 10.03.09.

A wonderful(awesome) love story. (:

obstacles never failed to fall against us.

still,we get through it as one.

two world become one,more than perfection.

we shared almost the same interest.

( fishing,cycling,music,soccer nd etc )

taught each other weaknesses.

whenever we had an opposite opinion,we will debate about it.

super fun seeing hym searching for words while debating. ((:

im glad,he more than willing to learn nd adapt with the changes. ((:

sugar(sweet) & salt(sour),is the main ingredient in love story.

stir it and we'll taste the happiness.

for this one stupid mistake,made by me,things changed drastically.

( shall not elaborate further. )

my pardon. i'd lied too. to all guy friends,we knew it has been a long time since our last contact / meet up,right?

too busy with in love till i left them aside.

goodness. i've used their names till things got this worse.

yes. my fault. i've reasons for doing so.

well,nothing else to be included. plus,im having difficulties using my left hand.

ouch! pain ohkay!

i shall end here. An Irreplaceble love.

Dear readers,whatever that was written,has the concerned from my parents &siblings. (:

sorry eh,saye bukan "kaki tangan dalam perot" (:

oh well,erratiqah binte erwan. why are yu so into this matter?

did i mention any names in? unless terase??

my dear readers,yu are more than welcome to read my fb.

read the status. NO NAMES were mentioned. ((:

well,calling me to come at yu? having the face to face talk??

haha! problem kat sch pon mak kau datg turun settle.

nih pulak nak step maner peh minah bebual tuu mcm.

hey hello,who are yu must i come nd respect?

i've already said,WE'RE NOTHING!

before yu say,i've ready get it to myself. (: thanks eh.

"come here nd i teach yu!" ??

ohmy. sendirik tak betol,nak ajar org. ohmy.

nak kene jugak label ke yang ko nih kurang respect jugak?

get your feet down to earth! have some sense of talking luh!

dekat blog berani ah nak panggil "lai".

with your friends,yu're out of word,what's more with others?

"getting older perangai tak ubah"??

loves this one! sekurang kurang nyer,masih mude larh perangai mcm gini.

jangan sampai darh tue baru nak fanatik. oh well. (:

why dont yu have a look in the mirror. yu,yourself are much worst.

nak membesar,perangai jgn kurang aja. nak melawan biar bertempat.

like what your dearest uncle kazali said,"advice our own family members before interfering others.childrens mind our own business."

is there any prove or way showing that its meant for your mum? hah!

yu're way too young to understand words. haha!

"takot with yu"? ohmygod! such a small lil kid! isk.

i dont talk with someone who has no ORIGINALITY!(:

if aku berani kat facebook,ko berani kat blog!

nd wait,kalau aku berani buat,bermakne aku berani tanggong.

sekurang kurangnye,aku tak larh tuka tuka URL for the sake of,nak tunjok terror. (:

nih baru kene,'berani kat web,tak berani depan'!

"zaman bile mau main bomoh bomoh"???

that question supposed to be the opposite. (:

do yu need me elaborate further? hah!

being a good stranger to yu,thus,not gonna offend any parties. (:

nd ouh yes! FYI too,i dont care if we siblings are not included to the family's sir name.

we dont give it a damn uh. not up to any standard luh.

we loves to be known as "Jaffar's grandchild" indeed. (:

well educated,believe in Allah nd has a good reputation.

must i include about our well-known family business?

oh yes. i wished to see yu get your dirty feets out from my family affair.

stop your cruel jibes towards my family! buzz off.

**pelik tapi benar. bile my dad called them,they gave stupid excuses such as, 'nak tido nd keluar'. though my dad did said its urgent matter. hmm. oh yes. they're just the same,lack of respect to their eldest bro nd uncle. eww! "the kettle calling the pot black" opps!

p/s: not my intention to add dirt to this dearest blog. but due to some inconsiderate/rude girl mentioning my NAME indeed FULL NAME,thus,here's a reply to her post. ugly words. eww!

my day starts with an outrageous news thru the phone call.

its a bombshell when she call out in pain. took cab head down to ang mo kio.

its a pang witnessing the one yu love in pain.

tears rolled down. unbearable condition.

called the ambulance(and it was my virgin call. hah.)

had unremitting sms with her. the best things too less worried.

she was awarded 5hours later. goodnees!

head down with abg tim nd the kids. an accident almost took place.

a car with plate number: SGA 3377E almost hit,erika!

just a few step away! mind yu!

with no hesitation,went to the nearest police station.

yes,we'd lodge a report.

freaking hate hospital cause of their rules nd regulations of having 2 visitors at one time. walau!

annoying okay!

(example: kalau pesakit darh nak goal,mcm maner? what about their family member yang ramai sekampung? masih nak two by two??aiyah!)

its kinda sad for the kids as they weren't allow to visit their mum.

so we decided to record a video of them.

teared when the kids put into words how much they desires her.

tug at the heart. ):

the rest ii shall not elaborate further.

The Miracle of Life nurtured by a woman who gave us love and sacrifice...MOTHER.

A mother is the truest friend we have,when trials,heavy and sudden,fall upon us;

when adversity takes the place of prosperity;when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine,desert us when troubles thicken around us,

still will she cling to us,and endeavour by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness,

and cause peace to return to our hearts.

p/s: your love is irreplaceable.

hundreds over picture to be share with yu guys.

due to insufficient space on this blog,those pic has been uploaded in my FB.

go take a look. go go go!! ((:

been enjoying life to the fullest. Amin.

counting down to the 'date'. prepare for the worst. hais.

anyway,

wishing my dear sweet cousin,

HAPPY GETTING OLDER!

yes yes,iloveyu. imissyu.

behind those smile there's hidden tears. (:

be strong.

im here waiting for yu.

p/s: im sorry for those mistakes. missing yu badly.